Day of the verdict
Friday, Dec 28.
Waiting for the doctor.
PET-scan went smooth yesterday was back home by noon. That PET they merge with the CT-scan and get like a 3D image of your inside thorax, showing exactly where the cancer has gotten too. Interesting stuff.
I'm prepared, did my research and know what to expect. I know i have cancer and have accepted the fact already. Now i need to know what kind and what to expect.
There is the Doc, she looks worried.
Let me have it straight doc, like i said before, i can take it.
OK she says, well, of course we have a cancer, thing is: It's Small Cell Lung Cancer. And she just looks at me, i better ask what that means, I'm not a cancer specialist (yet)
SCLC is the most aggressive lung-cancer you can get. No cure, to far along to operate, we can only hope to slow it down.
Now i swallow, ok i guess i will research that tonight. She has some information for me about it she says. So, this is terminal Doc? Without treatment a matter of months.
I go silent, had even forgotten the wife was with me at that point.
Snap out of it Martin, she seems to hold strong.
Glad i have a strong woman right now.
OK, what happens next?
They want to start chemotherapy soon as possible, but Monday is New years eve, so it's up to me if i want to come in Monday or Wednesday. I decide on Wednesday morning.
Lets go home.
Saturday Morning.
No sleep, been on the internet all night. i have accepted my faith it seems.
We can can only make the best of it, no use getting depressed, and it's not who i am.
Also decided on starting this blog. I have been researching SCLC all night, and found practically no specific info at first. When i did get on something that started with sclc after a while turned out to be about non-sclc anyway.
That needs to be better for for future patients in my situation.
Would have made my first night after getting the verdict much more bearable if i found some info right away.
Waiting for the doctor.
PET-scan went smooth yesterday was back home by noon. That PET they merge with the CT-scan and get like a 3D image of your inside thorax, showing exactly where the cancer has gotten too. Interesting stuff.
I'm prepared, did my research and know what to expect. I know i have cancer and have accepted the fact already. Now i need to know what kind and what to expect.
There is the Doc, she looks worried.
Let me have it straight doc, like i said before, i can take it.
OK she says, well, of course we have a cancer, thing is: It's Small Cell Lung Cancer. And she just looks at me, i better ask what that means, I'm not a cancer specialist (yet)
SCLC is the most aggressive lung-cancer you can get. No cure, to far along to operate, we can only hope to slow it down.
Now i swallow, ok i guess i will research that tonight. She has some information for me about it she says. So, this is terminal Doc? Without treatment a matter of months.
I go silent, had even forgotten the wife was with me at that point.
Snap out of it Martin, she seems to hold strong.
Glad i have a strong woman right now.
OK, what happens next?
They want to start chemotherapy soon as possible, but Monday is New years eve, so it's up to me if i want to come in Monday or Wednesday. I decide on Wednesday morning.
Lets go home.
Saturday Morning.
No sleep, been on the internet all night. i have accepted my faith it seems.
We can can only make the best of it, no use getting depressed, and it's not who i am.
Also decided on starting this blog. I have been researching SCLC all night, and found practically no specific info at first. When i did get on something that started with sclc after a while turned out to be about non-sclc anyway.
That needs to be better for for future patients in my situation.
Would have made my first night after getting the verdict much more bearable if i found some info right away.
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